_______Sunrise, ________Sunset. Sunrise________Sunset________. Meaning

I spend my days in a glorious haze. Searching for ways to keep the nightmares at bay. I spend all my nights pursuing delight. Seeking to send all my demons to flight. The dawns in between, are where I am, yearning. Dusk is where I’m grasping, and hoping, for meaning.   Humbly yours, j     […]

RetroReflectiveCurrentContendednessSyndrome

I miss the days, of edamame and stand-up comedies. I miss the smiles and sways, laughs, drinks, and games. I miss the days of beers darts, and cheers. I miss those times, of wonder and wines. I miss those old flickers, without seeing the real pictures. I miss water guns, and I miss real fun. […]

100 C’s to fuel your fire.

Content, comfortable, complacent, calm, casual, chill, collected, cool, careful, cab, caddy, cashier, cafe, caffeine, cake, calendar, cocoa, calcium, cookie, California, Cabernet, cellulite, Calvados, calorie, caviar, candy, canopy, crepe, cottage, cheese, capital, Capri, chardonnay, cappuccino, cannolli, captive, cymbalta, convention, control, copy, copulate, Calvin Klein, Chipotle, corn sugar, corporate, corporeal, currency, custard, cream, cotton candy, cotton, couch, […]

A tingling upon the finger of an outstretched hand

When we sense the summit, we accept, and embrace all that the world throws at us. We know, its just another hill to ascend, another obstacle our weak grasp upon humanity will have thrown in our path. We shed our fears. We toss aside the hindrances of our past. We disregard the previous desires of […]

Alone as a God

How do you imagine it would feel like, to be a god? According to most religious, or mythological ideologies, gods are typically thought of as incredibly powerful, potentially omniscient, probably possessing some,  supernaturally potent ability, and, depending on the religious, or mythological group, having the best moral compass possible, and caring, without limits, about human […]

Of a Chance

At the outset, the possibilities were many, the future was bright and hopeful, the outlook was wantonly optimistic. The broad scope of mutual intent, the want and promise of the world, could not be fully delivered for, or by either. So, in incrementally, tiny, measures, the euphoria did fade, and the emotional expanse, and all of […]

Filling in before filling out.

I intended to write this before the holiday.   Intending an, inspired by traditional ideas of love, passion, and romance, post, then, presenting a tempered, sardonic, counterpoint.  But, with scrutiny of this supposed holiday, I find that its existence feeds off of guilt, insecurity, compulsion, and unabashed commercial exploitation, of emotion, fragility, and a vacuous longing to […]

Open Heart Closure (XXI)

Tristan shed the paralyzing ambiance of the bathroom with the swiftness of doffing a water-saturated cloak. In a few steps, he was into the short hall, then heading towards his cache of belongings. It didn’t take him long to gather up his scant possessions.  They were haphazardly strewn about the room.  After all, he hadn’t […]