I remember being frustrated, many years ago. The conversations I had with my father seemed to repeat themselves. We would take drives, and end up discussing the same topics. For some reason, at a point, I decided to voice my thoughts about our discussions, and angrily asked, “why do we only talk about the same […]
Tag: sadness
Before, after, and the movement between
We don’t actively notice the passing of time. By the time we chat away another few sentences in a dialogue, or read another page, or drive to the next red light, what was present is already past. By the time we reflect on on what we had just done, the sense of being present, is […]
There is no gain in again
Stand up, sit down, walk, again and again. Ingest, imbibe, purge, again and again. Think thoughts, read words, learn, again and again. Push forward, stop short, recover, again, and again. Become enamored, lose interest, feel numb, again and again. Build up, destroy, apologize, again and again. Accept help, give nurture, stand alone. again and again. […]
What is now?
When we glance over our shoulders we don’t check for friendly faces. We look backwards only to make sure we are moving in the right direction Chased only look back to ensure they evaded the pursuer. Rifling through memories is the equivalent of shaking hands with ghosts. Sharing the pictures only serves to conjure that […]
Unmarked Grave
I stopped my car on a road that I’d never travelled. I didn’t use the gps; I’ve no idea how I reached my stopping point. I opened the trunk, retrieved the supplies, and set off in a random direction. I stopped after a time, though I don’t count how long. Then I began to dig, […]
Let down, replace. Let down, repeat.
I got stuck, deep in your web of lies, clinging for dear life as our boat capsized. I bought in, to the pitch you were sellin’, Holding tight to the bouquet that was dyin’. You’re a let down, but you wont be the last one. You’re a let down baby, and you thought I was […]
From a Telescope in the Clouds
God looked down, and frowned. He looked upon sadness, anger, and violence, God beheld melancholy. He took in selfishness, hatred, and insidiousness. God stared at wrath. He peered at wickedness, jealously, and sickness. God looked down and frowned, knowing that they were all made in his image. God looked down and smiled. He looked […]
Mornings
I thought that the evenings would be the worst. But they do not even come close. They can be eased with drink, and chatter. They are soothed by the weariness of a work day. They can be managed with music. They are distracted by show and cinema. Nothing eases the morning loneliness of a cool […]
The Next Wave
I feel it inside of me before I am able to perceive it with my external senses. It feels like a thin, cold, snake made of steel is coiling around the bones of my skeleton. My breathing slows in anticipation of its arrival, and I grit my teeth. I feel light dampness on my skin, […]
Fifteen Breaths
Mirror plaque Golden tracks Steak no good send it back Neon signs Hair so fine Dance to excess wine and dine Shining shell Taco bell Believe in heaven live in hell. Attention whore Convenience store Gluttony on a laminate floor Wit mistook Have the look Worry not shun the book […]