When we find ourselves lacking, we often find ourselves very critical. Whether we criticize our lack of self development, a failure to execute a particular task, or many tasks, or any number of perpetual procrastinations, we often try to find a way to rationalize. We come up with a myriad of reasons why we acquiescence […]
Category: me
A map without a legend
Have you seen me, recently? I can’t seem to find my way. I went looking for my purpose. I yearned to feel complete. Have you seen me, lately? I looked far, far and wide. I climbed high, high then dug low. I searched inside, inside and out. Have you seen me, today? I went searching […]
Weary
I just don’t want to sleep anymore. I suppose I have to. I just don’t want to. My biology impresses it upon my sensibilities. But my mind rebels. It senses the potentiality of missing out on the intensity of the feelings, emotions, sensations and experiences when somnambulant. The body and mind crave rest, and require […]
The Next Wave
I feel it inside of me before I am able to perceive it with my external senses. It feels like a thin, cold, snake made of steel is coiling around the bones of my skeleton. My breathing slows in anticipation of its arrival, and I grit my teeth. I feel light dampness on my skin, […]
Plumbing Depths
Give. The well is deep. Give. Though your eyes may weep. Give. The reservoir is full. Give. Though it may hurt your soul. Give. The reserves are plentiful. Give. Though you find your wallet resentful. Give. The cup runneth over. Give. Though thy world be asunder. Give. The seconds provide. Give. Though you feel out […]
Lonesome Highway Syndrome
I don’t think it likely, when I present to you a very particular type of experience, that you will find yourself unable to relate. I choose the words, “I don’t think it likely,” very carefully, as undoubtedly, there are some who have not experienced that which I am about to describe. For the small populous […]
The Unbent
Though the wind tears upon my face and rips through my clothing, and slices into my skin, Though the rain hammers my scalp, drenches my coverings, and chills me to the bone, Though the sun creates blisters upon my neck, and causes me to shed that which shields my flesh, Though the snow and ice […]
Contentment
This morning I sat in the grass in the shade. I sat in the grass, by a lake in a state which wasn’t my own. My legs were weary, my shoulders were sore, my feet were blistered and pained, the rest of my body was raw from exertion, and my mental state lethargic from a […]
Rivers, Smiles, and Sun
At a certain point, we become aware that our lives have a certain trajectory. Some believe that it has been preset since the day we are born. We may choose to fight against it all we want, but that’s wastefully pointless. It’s best to accept whatever course that you are on. Life is like a […]
Severing Fruitless Branches
In every person, I’ve always found something. Something from which to learn, to help make me better. Better than I was before. More loving and understanding. Understanding of others, and myself. And more thoughtful. Thoughtful about how I acted, and of received treatment. Treatment of my heart, body, emotions, and my soul. A soul that […]